My subconsious has matured

So, when I was in school I used to have these recurring dreams this time of year that I couldn't find my locker. I would have the combination and all that, but my stuff would be in the locker and the locker would be lost among a maze of other identical lockers and for some reason I would be unable to find my locker among them. To make matters worse, my class schedule would always be in one of those lockers and unable to access it I would forever be lost in the hallways not sure whether I had math next or not (math was usually involved in these nightmares somehow).

Since leaving high school these nightmares have stopped. I decided that it was because I was no longer anxious about the world around me, that I was comfortable in my path and all was well. Except now, and for the last several years, I've had this new recurring dream where I'm driving my car and my breaks don't work. I roll into people at intersections, rear end police cars, and coast through red lights. And you know what the worst part is? Its not just a few weeks of the year I have to deal with these dreams, like it was with the beginning of the school year dreams, these car related dreams can happen all year round.

I know what it is too. See, when I was a kid all I really had to worry about was school. Getting to class on time was literally my biggest problem. Now that I'm grown up I have adult problems, so instead of my anxieties being limited to just a portion of the year, I have 365 solid days of worry to deal with.

I hate being an adult.

Oh. I've decided to take Monday off. No, dad, no mum, I can't afford it, but I think the more important thing is I can't afford NOT to. That's why there are stat holidays in this country! I need a night's sleep where my new car does not careen backwards off a cliff.

Okay?

Thanks.

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